Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Rayne has moved. Go to her new blog to tag. *Shoves you along*

http://-sapphirerain.blogspot.com

posted at 6:44 PM... bye...

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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Testing Thursday.

Haizzz....It's nearing the end of the holidays but that's okay. Coz after that we have...Learning Journey Week!!!

Which it's going to be quite fun despite the fact that I haven't completed my hmwk, haven't prepared for MAD Day and that I screwed up on my planning.

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Ah well. No use getting depressed. As I repeatedly told everybody who went to my blog, I am not as hardworking as I made it out to be. So feh to you if you had been mistaken. I HAD warned you, after all.

Ok, Learning Journey Week.

Basically, it's a week in which we have no lessons, but still have to come to school for extra-curricular activities. =) Fun, isn't it? Seriously looking forward to it.

Yesterday, we had our CPR course. And miraculously, I passed my two praticals, despite the fact that I screwed it up and had the examiner in fits of despair. And even more stunningly, I passed my theory with full marks. Whoa. I guess it shows that I can make it if I try. Doesn't mean that I don't in my exams.

I'm talking in short, clipped sentences, I know. For some reason, I am having difficulty concentrating and fidgeting all over. Shall end this post and walk around for a bit.

-Walks around for a bit-

Back, but don't feel like writing anything else. I don't want to have such a short post either, but I am really too lazy. -grimaces- Ah well. Ending here.

Rayne'_

posted at 11:35 AM... bye...

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Sunday, March 12, 2006

Hi everybody...Thanks for worrying about me. Seriously, I'm alright now. :) Special thankies to Shi Cheng and Chucky, and an extra big thankie to Sarah. Lurve ya too, darling.

On Friday we had Swim Carnival. I had to swim for inter-class relay. At first, we had to report to the competitor's stand. Since I was only notified at the stadium that I had to swim, I had to change in the toilets first. After that, I went over the the stand but couldn't find my friends, so I went back to the Buckle stand and squished over to ask my other friends. They didn't know where they went so I squished back down, asked Swetha again but to no avail. I finally found them wedged in the Buckle stand, asking mandi to join us for the relay.

So. The relay. To put it in a nutshell, we were the winners. Of the losers. We got first place from the bottom. -.-" Ah well. What matters is the exercise.

After the relay, we went back to find the stand soaking wet, and with it our bags, shoes, socks and uniform. >:( So horrible!!!! We lay out our uniforms to dry and sat down in the sun. In the end, we wore our wet uniforms home.

March Holidays are here!!!!!!!!!! A well deserved break for all students!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Boo to anyone who spoils it!!! Hehe. I'm overreacting over a holiday, but I really feel liberated. No need to wake up at 5.40 everyday liao!!! Yayyy!!

Gtg now. Happy holidays!~

posted at 8:02 PM... bye...

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

If you noticed, I don't really put my hmwk up on my blog now. These days, I talk more about my feelings. I'm in a jumble now. Should I be happy, or sulk? Should I base it on my thoughts? But my thoughts are so erratic and jumping from topic to topic, and I can't possibly smile or frown the whole day. Neither can I post that much on this blog...because....

Ok...never mind. I have history rev. to do. I have to study what is history.....why do we learn history....what is time....and so on and so forth. I'm not in the mood to study but HISTORY'S TOMORROW..!!!!!!

Argh. Me and my hysterics. I've been on a tense coil these few days, and my life is not making it any better for me.

Sigh. So. What shal I talk about?

Shall I talk about my friend who crashed down on my knee and sprained my ankle, and then I got scolded by my OTHER friend just because I said it hurts? Shall I talk about how I was called a pervert and how deeply hurt I am? Or shall I just scream out loud because I am so frustrated and so beyond caring that it hurts so much?

Not a wonderful list of choices, but there you have it. Life cannot be so simple for me now.

Ok, let's talk about how frustrated I am, shall we?

I am frustrated because I can't find anybody to confide in such that they do not scoff at me. I want to scream because every time somebody ridicules me and says that I am a pervert they have NO IDEA HOW BADLY IT HURTS. I feel like crying because I do not know what's going on and why I am behaving this way. I think I am going crazy and I know it. There's no one to comfort me when I do want to cry. They'll go,"Yeah right, as if." Because NO BODY know how I think, what I do and why I did. They have no idea what it is like to be me. They think it's so easy to just ridicule me and laugh it off later. Well it's not as easy as you think and it is not what you think it is. You think I'm sick and you tell me so, thinking I would just put it off as a joke or a jibe. But every time you said that you have no idea that you drew blood. So now I am a bloodless person, unable to feel properly or smile properly again. Do you know how that is damn tiring to smile when you are hurting inside? No you don't. You are not me. You don't understand. So just stop it. Stopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstopstop
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posted at 6:58 PM... bye...

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Monday, March 06, 2006

For some reason, I feel oddly depressed and cheerful alternatedly. Like I'm floating midway, and if I concentrate really hard, I'll be pulled into that direction of my moods.

Ok, that didn't really make sense.

Basically, I'm living in an alternate state of bliss and despair, so I'm really temperemental these days. Not that you can tell.

Now that I've got that out of my chest, let's go down to real business.

I've found that Science had started becoming interesting. Now, I'm arguing with Mr S over particles and the fact that we are NOT made out of stars. Having a hard time to prove my point, but that's the fun of the whole thing. To convince your opponent that you are right or befuddle him into agreeing with you unconciously. Strangely, I find that oddly satisfying.

I am catching up fine with my new Jap class. They are very nice to me. :) Dozoyoroshiku.

I started to take notice of people, how they walk and how they talk. And when I walk past them, I avert my eyes onto the floor. I feel strange.....I've never behave like this before.

I'm becoming more of an oddball than I thought.

Even in the train, I usually don't look at the passengers on the train, but engross myself in wondering what is the best way to tie my shoelace or count the number of wrinkles in my socks. (obviously, that was a sarcastic remark)

Maybe it's because of all the change around me. Even though the first term is nearly over, I still can't get used to my new surroundings. Hmm..

Ah well. Time to stop. Very short entry but hope you don't mind. >:(

posted at 9:15 PM... bye...

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Saturday, March 04, 2006

Ok. It's the weekend again and we are supposed to be relaxing and watching tv. If not, then what's the point of weekends...right?? But noooooooo, we just had to have loads of homework piling up to our necks including the promise of tests next week, so now I'm taking a breather now and then before returning to the battle.

Ok...Let's start with homework! (This part's skippable but no one reads this blog anyway so I'm just gonna leave it here.)

Chinese: Stuffed up to my knees in it...and to be submitted on Monday!!! Our teacher does give us a hard deal. But she's nice actually...lets us off for a break now and then.

English: Have to complete a worksheet and the haikus. Unfortunately for me I didn't take the time to look at the haikus so this is rush rush rush for me before assembly again. Sigh....

Math: Completed. Not much anyway.

CLE: Harharhar. The greatest joke of all times. I actually started on this non-examinable subject so that I can research on Vasco Da Gama and mooch around on the com. Just kidding. But it is a relief to type with my fingers and not glare at the pen, correction tape, paper and ruler as if it is their fault. Also completed.

Science: I think that there is a worksheet tucked somewhere neatly into my file....

Geog: Not much stuff. Coping along. But it still does add to the workload.

History: Oh please. History is so suckie but we have the test next week. So I just have to grit my teeth and glare at the pen, correction tape, paper, ruler....Oh wait. We've been through this already. Don't make me start.

Japanese: Since the end of CA I've been slacking a bit. But now I'm biting my nails coz of the results. Oh don't make me fail.....

Whew! End of homework.

For Friday, we had NPCC Sea as usual. After learning some new commands we actually played captain's ball as part of PT (Physical Training) Games. That was perfectly fine, but they added a twist to it. Instead of one ball, we had two, and instead of two teams, we had FOUR. XD It was very amusing. Because we can't differentiate who is in our team, we decided to shout "la" if our team mate gets our ball. Then, our team mate can throw it to us.

So the whistle sounded and everyone ran in different directions to get the balls. Once we saw our team mate get it, we shouted "La! La!" which was better then shouting "Here! Here!" because the other teams were all shouting that. Our team must have been a sight: Imagine watching a bunch of people dancing up and down and shouting "La! La! La!"!! I would have doubled up in laughter in my case.

Ok, time to stop typing and continue fighting the battle. Today's already Saturday and I've only completed two subjects....*Shudder* Good night everybody!!

posted at 7:33 PM... bye...

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Back to ol' me again. :)

I am still debating whether I should post this or not. If I did, you would see this post, and know that I'm still debating over it. Ah well. Let time runs its course.

Speaking of time, History has loads of it, so my head is still swimming with A.D and B.C. Latin and English mixture. Great. To add on to the language barrier, my Jap is moving on to higher levels, or should I say, another foreign language? So now not only I have History, I also have Japanese.

I'm giving myself a savage pleasure by lisiting what I have problems with, so I might as well continue.

Math. Math is all wrong. I know basic stuff and all, but sometimes I have the feeling that it might change for the worse. Creepy feeling.

English and Lit are fine. Concentrating on voicing my opinions in class. Surprisingly, it's working quite well.

Chinese. Well, what can I say? Chinese is like the dam that traps all the information in like the rushing river....Unfortunately it blocks me out too.

Geog. Managing to cope. No extra comment.

I hate to say this...but we have no progress on Science at all. I'm afraid that we are the slowest class in the name of history. What a title that'll make!

Philo. Ok.

That's all I have to say today. Still debating whether I would post it...maybe I would. After all, what would I lose?

posted at 8:17 PM... bye...

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